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No, it's okay! See, all better!
[Haha...ha!]
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[Well, he doesn't want her to regret telling him. The fact she was willing is a good sign and helpful to maintaining her safety, especially if there's someone out there who would harm her. So he has to rein it in, to take a deep breath and frown but keep the flare of anger locked up for just a bit longer. His hand clenches in a blanket instead, turning the knuckles white.]
Does it hurt? Are you all right?
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Not as much anymore. It hurt really badly for awhile...but it helped me stay awake longer, too, when I needed to.
[All right? It's such a simple question, but it's so complex, as well. Is she okay, or has she just filed it away under some compartment or another so she wouldn't have to deal with the reality of what happened?]
I'm all right. It was just a game, so it's okay.
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[Meanwhile he runs through the people he's met and the deaths he spied. Does anyone strike him as likely to hurt a little girl? Not particularly, but he hadn't made it through every vision before even he got exhausted. Hasn't met everyone here yet either.
If she doesn't tell him, he'll work it out. Do some throttling of his own. Here, however, he reaches forward tentatively toward the scarf.]
Can I see? I just want to make sure it looks okay now.
[And possibly get a feel for the size of the bruises left by those hands, so as to place them to their owner, if at all possible.]
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[She's not of the mindset to suspect he'd be doing anything suspicious by looking, so she takes the scarf off again, her posture starting to read as...ashamed? Naturally, she didn't do anything wrong. But she wonders if he'd be less upset if she'd just won.]
A very nice lady found me when it happened and helped me. That made me feel better.
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Oh? Who's that?
[Someone he can thank, but someone he can ask, too.]
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[Her energy definitely shifts talking about that part; it's easy for Mary to forget about the things that hurt when she focuses on the things that excite her, instead.]
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[Sounds like Mary's charmed another, then. She does it so easily. It's good - the more friends she has, the more people will be looking after her, especially when he's out exploring. He can't invest his heart in her any more than he has already allowed. Best to have others who can take care of her. Best for her to have others to cling to, so she isn't too upset when he's out trying to figure out what this place is and what it wants.]
I'll have to thank her for helping you.
[With the tablet because this heat is too much to go walking around in.]
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[She puts her fingers to her forehead.]
And I said I'd never gotten a kiss before, and she said that's what her Mother always did to make her feel better when she was sad. I didn't know something could feel so warm...I want to have the biggest and happiest family forever.
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But it seems Mary never even had that much to begin with. He reaches forward to place an overly large hand on her head and smooth down her hair, ruffled by the scarf.]
Sounds like you're on your way to it. We've just got one person, apparently, who doesn't agree. That person needs to apologize to you.
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[She's beaming beneath the affection from Rosi's big hand.]
Because I was playing, too!
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Playing shouldn't involve people getting hurt, though. You know that, right?
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We all hide such pretty color on the inside. Did you know?
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He really should have seen this coming. It's about par for the course with the kids he's dealt with. But those had all been drawn to his brother, who encouraged it. Rosinante just frowns.]
That color is blood, Mary. That's what keeps people alive. If you see that, it means you're hurting them a lot and that's not all right.
[Given what he's seen of her life before this place, it makes some actual sense that she might not understand this, but given those other children, he's not entirely optimistic that this is simply ignorance.]
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Sometimes...I just feel so strange.
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[At least she has some sort of moderate restraint. She doesn't seem to want to hurt people, really. She's already better off than his own brother had been. Better off than Gladius, too old to be persuaded to change, and Dellinger, who could have learned better had he ever been given a chance to be something else. Rosinante sinks back down onto his side and rests his head in a hand, ready to listen.]
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[She puts her hands over her stomach, then they drift up higher, to her chest, where she squeezes the fabric of her chest.]
Up here. There's something missing and empty, and I want to fill it up and be full but I don't know how, and the only way I feel better is to think about those things that keep people alive. I want them. I want to have those things and when I can't have them I just feel like I'll go crazy.
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[He knows that void. Figures everyone who was hurt or abandoned at that same age does. They all try to fill it with something. The problem is, when a kid that age has never been loved, they don't know that's what it is they're missing, so they try to fill it with the things they do know about. More fear, more anger, more hurt.
He's known this, he's seen it in her, but he's held back because his own heart still belongs to that little boy he left in a treasure chest. But maybe he can spare a little more just so Mary doesn't have to go down the same path the others did. He reaches out the hand resting at his side and scoops her closer against his chest.]
How's that?
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It's warm.
[Warm. Warm and special and so important.]
There's music inside of you. It's like a little drum.
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[But it's cute. Music? Sure, he likes that. Let him fill her heart up with music, then. It's hard to know what to say, otherwise. Kindness is a two-way street, but she already tries to be good to people. She gives them flowers and drawings and laughter, and saying that being kind gets kindness in return is too simple. Not always the truth. Some people are dangerous and only know that void.]
I think it might be one of the things you're missing, but I don't know for sure. What do you think?
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[It likely isn't what he means, but she's trying her best to understand what he's attempting to explain her.]
I don't have anything like that, I don't think.
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No, I mean being closer to someone who wants good things for you. Being around people who want you to be safe and happy. Getting hugs. Things like that.
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[Mary goes quiet for a moment.]
That's new, too. I read about it in books, though.
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When I was about your age, I felt really alone, too. Someone took me in, though, and it changed my life. I don't want kids your age to have to go through what I did. We all need someone who's there for us.
[He's still hesitant to even mention it, but his one regret is that even Law, who he loved so much, didn't get to know a lot of things about him. Some of that is absolutely for the best, but there were little things he could have shared and now he'll never get to.]
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[No wonder he's so nice, she thinks. He knows how scary things can be no matter how nice you are. She gets so mad when nothing's working out even when she tries so, so hard.]
Was that someone really nice? I hope they were nice.
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