[Obviously she's right, he just gets self-conscious, and it's hard to constantly be met with reminders of how much he missed out on. Still, obviously if the choice was to have him here or not to, then he knows which he'd pick.]
I have. And the alternative is worse. Not being here means I probably wouldn't be anywhere at all right now. In a casket, I guess.
[Figuratively, anyway. More literally... Well, it gets gruesome to think about the end results of burial at sea.]
So if anything, it's all made me more intent on doing as the orbs ask. I don't want to waste the opportunity I have here.
[A hand rests on his arm, gentle and reassuring. She knows exactly where he's coming from. But they don't need to get into that. Not when his focus is on the time he missed with Law.]
The time the two of you have together here is a gift. And I'd be incredibly cross if you wasted it.
[It's the first time he's admitted in actual words to anyone other than Law that he's supposed to be dead, though he knows others have worked it out. She doesn't seem bothered, but then again, it isn't that he expected her or anyone else to. It's harder for him to accept it himself. Oh, he'd worked out in those last several hours that it was probably inevitable, but he wasn't actually ready, not by a long shot.
He sighs, and covers her hand with his. Manages a smile, after a moment, though it's weak.]
Wouldn't want to make you cross, that's worse than playing dice with the orbs. I bet you're terrifying when you're angry.
[She laughs, arching her eyebrows as if he's onto something. Clara knows she can be downright vindictive and awful and scary when she's truly mad. And she hopes Rosi never has to see her like that. So far, only the elder Doctor has.]
But I doubt I'm the most frightening person here when they're angry. Surely there's someone worse?
[But she has a hard time imagining anyone angry with him. He's one of the kindest, best men she's ever met.]
Oh, sure, gotta be. Probably someone you'd never expect, too. ... Marta, maybe. That's how you awaken her secret hidden powers, make her angry. Her eyes suddenly glow red.
[Man, wouldn't that be something? Makes him laugh, which helps, and his smile stays bright a few seconds before slowly fading.]
Or there's Law, but he doesn't really get mad at me. Not these days. It's all bluster. Not like when he was a little shrimp who hated my guts. You ever have a kid try to kill you? Takes some kind of determination.
[Clara makes a soft sound, trying to project amusement rather than the fact she's trying to get a feel for what sort of people could ever be mad at someone like him. In her mind, he's too kind and sweet to warrant anger.]
Can't say I've ever had a child try to kill me. Had one that was indirectly responsible for my death, but I'm not about to put that on a baby.
[Before he has time to respond to that snippet of information she's just dropped in his lap, she quickly adds on —]
[Right, that's - he might have to come back to that later. Just as he might have to come back to admitting it's Daisy who's actually angry with him right now. He does want to tell her, because it's weighing on him so greatly, but it's also so easy to dodge giving real answers. Bad habit.
At her question, he thinks a moment, but then shakes his head.]
I'm not sure I can imagine it from either of them. One seems so eager to stay upbeat, and the other, mm. I can't get a read on the older-looking one, actually. He's perceptive, but difficult. The younger one I've seen be awfully serious at times, though it was... empathetic. Patient.
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I have. And the alternative is worse. Not being here means I probably wouldn't be anywhere at all right now. In a casket, I guess.
[Figuratively, anyway. More literally... Well, it gets gruesome to think about the end results of burial at sea.]
So if anything, it's all made me more intent on doing as the orbs ask. I don't want to waste the opportunity I have here.
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[A hand rests on his arm, gentle and reassuring. She knows exactly where he's coming from. But they don't need to get into that. Not when his focus is on the time he missed with Law.]
The time the two of you have together here is a gift. And I'd be incredibly cross if you wasted it.
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He sighs, and covers her hand with his. Manages a smile, after a moment, though it's weak.]
Wouldn't want to make you cross, that's worse than playing dice with the orbs. I bet you're terrifying when you're angry.
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[She laughs, arching her eyebrows as if he's onto something. Clara knows she can be downright vindictive and awful and scary when she's truly mad. And she hopes Rosi never has to see her like that. So far, only the elder Doctor has.]
But I doubt I'm the most frightening person here when they're angry. Surely there's someone worse?
[But she has a hard time imagining anyone angry with him. He's one of the kindest, best men she's ever met.]
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[Man, wouldn't that be something? Makes him laugh, which helps, and his smile stays bright a few seconds before slowly fading.]
Or there's Law, but he doesn't really get mad at me. Not these days. It's all bluster. Not like when he was a little shrimp who hated my guts. You ever have a kid try to kill you? Takes some kind of determination.
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Can't say I've ever had a child try to kill me. Had one that was indirectly responsible for my death, but I'm not about to put that on a baby.
[Before he has time to respond to that snippet of information she's just dropped in his lap, she quickly adds on —]
You haven't seen the Doctor angry, have you?
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At her question, he thinks a moment, but then shakes his head.]
I'm not sure I can imagine it from either of them. One seems so eager to stay upbeat, and the other, mm. I can't get a read on the older-looking one, actually. He's perceptive, but difficult. The younger one I've seen be awfully serious at times, though it was... empathetic. Patient.